"Because I can't stay in my head, not because I can't stay at home. I need a puzzle. I need something to think about that isn't... the scrolling cinema of horror in my brain. That was the puzzle they had that day," Malcolm explained. A beat and he admitted "And my mother hired a German ex-Olympic judo champion nurse to hover over me, so maybe in this case, it was a little bit not wanting to stay at home. But at all times, it's at least ninety percent not wanting to stay in my head. It's not a good place."