“Somehow: not reassuring.” He sits Malcolm on the closed toilet for a moment to go and retrieve a chair that won’t get ruined being under a shower, carefully positioning it and making sure it won’t slide around when Malcolm goes to sit down. He’s being neurotic. He knows he’s being neurotic. But he can’t stand it, the thought of losing this, losing them. He comes back to Malcolm, looking him over with worry.
“Do you need help to finish undressing? I can help.”
"About... the dream?" Malcolm verifies. He frowns faintly. "I should have known it was wrong but you never know when you're in a dream that it's messed up."
That makes him even more curious. He guides Malcolm into the shower, turning the water on to a warm and gentle setting. "How did you figure it out? Who the Bowery Ripper was? Did you see him when he pushed you?"
Neal looks at him, wide-eyed. "We were? I can't imagine your NYPD associates were very happy about that."
A tiny smile from Neal, though. An almost shy half-joke. "Maybe you should tell them about it. Give them a little exposure therapy, or whatever it's called."
He's wetting a washcloth to start cleaning some of the grime from Malcolm's shoulders and arms when Malcolm says that. Neal makes a strangled noise. "We were friends?"
But if his dad wasn't a killer...
Neal's mind flicks to James, his own fragile hopes and doubts. He shakes his head, wringing out the cloth and adding a little soap to start wiping Malcolm down. Gently. He's got scrapes everywhere, and where there aren't scrapes, there are bruises. "I think we won't be doing anything that married people do for a while. Not until you've had plenty of opportunity to recover."
Malcolm, with a head injury, is a little bit stupider than normal. He looks at Neal with some confusion and, when he hits a particularly tender spot, a bit of a wince.
Neal fumbles the soap in his surprise, managing to catch it, lather up the cloth a little, and place it back in its dish without letting more than brief surprise show.
"I was thinking about the more immediate and physical," Neal says ironically. He takes extra care as he finishes cleaning the spot that made Malcolm wince. It's hard to tell, a little bit, what's dirt and what's bruise. "...I wouldn't... object to that, though. Adoption. At some point. I think you know that."
"Yeah." Neal half-smiles, sponging a bit of grease away from Malcolm's neck gently. "How do you think it happened? You were at a gallery opening, maybe, and I was casing the place."
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He guides Malcolm toward the bathroom, trying not to linger too long on the bruises darkening his back.
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"It wasn't bad. I just knew he wasn't you. In the end."
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“Do you need help to finish undressing? I can help.”
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"Um yeah. Maybe... yeah."
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On the one hand, it's meant as a distraction. On the other, Neal is genuinely, wildly curious.
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“We were married.”
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A tiny smile from Neal, though. An almost shy half-joke. "Maybe you should tell them about it. Give them a little exposure therapy, or whatever it's called."
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But if his dad wasn't a killer...
Neal's mind flicks to James, his own fragile hopes and doubts. He shakes his head, wringing out the cloth and adding a little soap to start wiping Malcolm down. Gently. He's got scrapes everywhere, and where there aren't scrapes, there are bruises. "I think we won't be doing anything that married people do for a while. Not until you've had plenty of opportunity to recover."
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"You mean like adopting?"
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"Did... in your dream, we had...?"
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It's teasing, but there's a slight bite to the words as he thinks of Dani and JT.
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