I've mentioned it, to some other people here, they've told me the same thing, that it wasn't my fault, that I should let it go. I want to believe them, but I feel like that's another piece of it too. I worked hard to get where I was, to be the best at what I did, and I made a choice that took that away from myself. If I had just asked to be reassigned in the beginning, it would have gone through. I wasn't Cain's first attempt, I was the third, and I can't forgive myself for it.