“…None of them. Except that apparently if I turned Will without permission, you’d murder him. And probably me when I got in the way,” Malcolm says. “And… I guess I was right about turning being about the community….”
"Wolves use violence in ways humans don't. It's a part of our language. I want to transcend that but some things can only be solved with teeth. You are part of how we're going to learn to do things in less bloody ways." But where to start now?
"We call lone wolves 'coyotes'. They don't live long. The pack helps channel your instincts; alone they run amok. Humans don't trust us, animals hate us. It's hard to hold down a job with your instincts running wild and your boss instinctively lashing out at you, so the pack is where we all want to be. You never want to be a coyote."
"I do. I want better for our people than scraping by in black market deals. I want our people to have options." And Malcolm's training means maybe they have a shot at that.
"I have one pup who's going to make a great governor if I can get him through some of his trauma, I have another who wants to go back and get a high school diploma so he can go to college, but he has to learn to control himself first. Trauma, again."
“Trauma’s my specialty,” he gushes, like Lark doesn’t know; like Lark isn’t detailing that that’s why he chose him. It’s a clue he’s starting to feel excited about it again.
"I've got a pretty wide variety for you to work through in LA." He doubts Malcolm will ever be bored.
"That's the thing about being a wolf; we've all gone through something terrible to become what we are. We all have trauma. Cutter was a veteran, he fought in Iraq. He lost everything overseas and then lost even more when he came home. Jason dropped out of high school and became a prostitute. He'd never had a real family before the pack. It overwhelms him sometimes."
“Will and I have never fit in anywhere. I think he feels it. Innately. The belonging of the pack. He’s helping me learn to trust it,” Malcolm tells him.
"It was hard for me at first. It took me time to trust the pack, too. You and Will are monogamous but if you ever did split up...don't fall for a wolf girl."
He's had to tell Maggie so he might as well tell Malcolm, too. Even if the threat of it is less for him. "Because part of your free will will be tied up in her. She'll own a piece of you until the day she dies."
"I go both ways. I fell in love with a woman here, when I was a new inmate... It scared the hell out of me not knowing if she'd be able to control part of me if I fell too hard." But it's not a thing you get to choose once it starts to happen, not really. "Anyway that's how I learned it's specific to wolf girls. Although be careful with your jealousies--you'll feel those more keenly. It's part of how we bond our packs together. We're just more predisposed to envy now."
“What do you mean by control, though?” He’s not worried about jealousy. He knows Will’s devotion to him is as strong as his to Will. “Is that literal?”
"Yeah. It's sort of like a blissful fog settles over you. You'd die for her; you'd kill for her. You'd do anything to earn a reward from her. And then one day she gets shot and your head clears, and you realize you never want to be in that position again. That's how I came up with the way I run my packs."
"No, most of my pack are straight." It's just a numbers game. "We just don't sleep with the girl. Anyone who wants to take that risk is free to make that choice but most of them are fine just getting their needs met with humans."
"Yeah that doesn't happen in the real world. Iris isn't a real wolf like we are; if she was she and Maggie would be tearing each other apart. And Maggie is going to start a pack in her world, and you're going to LA. The Barge pack is different. We work together to make sure we all get our deals, and to set each other up for the best possible next steps, but settled packs are different."
A sympathetic smile. "He's one of us. Like I said: Iris can't make him into a Time Lord with a wolf ritual. She can only make him a wolf. He's got my blood in him. You can't smell that?"
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"We call lone wolves 'coyotes'. They don't live long. The pack helps channel your instincts; alone they run amok. Humans don't trust us, animals hate us. It's hard to hold down a job with your instincts running wild and your boss instinctively lashing out at you, so the pack is where we all want to be. You never want to be a coyote."
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"I have one pup who's going to make a great governor if I can get him through some of his trauma, I have another who wants to go back and get a high school diploma so he can go to college, but he has to learn to control himself first. Trauma, again."
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"That's the thing about being a wolf; we've all gone through something terrible to become what we are. We all have trauma. Cutter was a veteran, he fought in Iraq. He lost everything overseas and then lost even more when he came home. Jason dropped out of high school and became a prostitute. He'd never had a real family before the pack. It overwhelms him sometimes."
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“Why not?”
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