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From:

cactusy

Because things took a turn for the stupid.

I don't need you to teach me how to let people in, or how to be happy, or... whatever. I'll be happy when I get my deal and get out of here.

From:

abrightboy

You said you have a personality disorder. I was working on that. I don't know what you think I can offer you, if you don't want help.

From:

cactusy

I also told you it wasn't curable.

From:

abrightboy

It’s not curable. A lot of disorders that aren’t curable are manageable. Questions like the ones I was asking help establish baselines. They also help you examine your own thought processes. They also help me establish your ‘normal’, since you want me to look out for signs of conditioning. But ‘stupid’ is another word for it, I guess.

Why did that question provoke you and the other two didn’t?

From:

cactusy

It didn't. But I wanted to know where you were going with it, and you refused to tell me, and that provoked me.

From:

abrightboy

Because you can’t let someone else be in control of anything you’re involved in, even if they have expertise and you don’t? We should probably examine that too.

From:

cactusy

Malcolm.

From:

abrightboy

Did I do it again?

From:

cactusy

I come to you and say I want you to keep an eye out for the possibility that I'm losing control of myself, that I've been brainwashed, that there's someone else in the driver's seat of my head. And you're surprised that I don't want someone else doing anything with my head that I don't have control of?

You wanna think about connecting the dots a little, or what.

From:

abrightboy

I was only controlling the line of questioning, not your head. How can I know if someone else is driving if I can’t assess what you driving looks like?

From:

cactusy

You don't need to keep me in the dark about what you're looking for to do that.

From:

abrightboy

I do if knowing might influence how you answer.

From:

cactusy

And that's the kind of game I'm not here for.

From:

abrightboy

The game of objective analysis?

From:

cactusy

If that's what you wanna call it. Sure.

From:

abrightboy

It’s not a trick.

From:

cactusy

I don't care.

From:

abrightboy

I wouldn’t hurt you.

From:

cactusy

I'm not scared of you, Malcolm.

From:

abrightboy

That’s not what I was suggesting.

From:

cactusy

And if I was, that wouldn't be reassuring. Anyone can say "I'm not going to hurt you".

From:

abrightboy

Anyone can say anything, but if you've gotten to know someone and they're sincere, then what they say should carry more weight than what any old person might say.

From:

cactusy

We're talking about a hypothetical situation where someone's scared of you. You're a pussycat. If they need to be told you're not going to hurt them, they're not the type to take you at your word.

From:

abrightboy

You think I'm not capable of hurting you because I choose not to?

From:

cactusy

If we're talking about me again, you couldn't hurt me physically because I'd snap you like a twig. You couldn't hurt me mentally because--

[She pauses.]

You're too obvious.

[As much as she dislikes the fact, it is possible to break her: after all, Samaritan had done it expertly. But while Malcolm's attempt at objective analysis had given her the willies, it hadn't come anywhere close to harming her. Malcolm's approach might involve some amount of keeping things to himself, but it's still direct. It's not insidious. It never truly invites her to let her guard down.]