Malcolm Bright

Jedao shakes his head.

"No. I'd be scared all the time that I was fucking things up - or, if I wasn't, I guess I'd rather know what's coming for me than feel fine and not know. I like...especially now that I'm here, where not everyone knows Shuos Jedao first, I like the freedom of choosing how to approach someone, instead of having my best or only tactic be to lean in to the way they already think of me. There are people who see more sides of me, or all sides of me, but I get to choose who, and when. Who's earned that kind of trust. I admire people like that - the Irises and Eiffels and Trevors, who are flagrantly and unflinchingly themselves at all times for all comers. I think that lets them do things I can't do, sometimes, and I think they're...important elements to have, in a community about new perspectives and change. But I don't think their strategy is right for me, and I don't want it."

Sometimes, when he looks through old footage, it almost seems like Shuos Jedao managed to do both at once, which breaks his brain a little and does make him jealous, but that also might just be - everything about Jedao One. And even he couldn't make it work all the time.