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[abrightboy]

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Re: private;

[abrightboy]

Nobody really understands us separately so it's probably natural that nobody understands us together, either.

Re: private;

[ukan]

Yeah that's how it was for Alec and I. We had to literally find a therapist who was telepathic to understand us and even then I don't think she fully did. In any case Alec will never go back to her so we'll never know.

Granted, we have a lot of passion in our relationship. Probably too much. I don't think it's healthy to have what I have with Alec.

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

Why?

Re: private;

[ukan]

It's so intense. It's everything. It's blood and marrow and soul deep and I would do anything to keep it.

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

So? What's wrong with that?

Re: private;

[ukan]

Would you kill for Will? Would you murder a child to protect him, to keep him safe, to be able to take him home in one piece?

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

Why would I have to kill a child to do that? That doesn't make any sense. Is this child trying to kill Will? I think, even if they got the upper hand, I could turn the tables in our favour without killing them.

I actually don't kill people at all.

Re: private;

[ukan]

That's my point. You have limits to what you would do for Will. I don't. And it's not necessarily a good thing.

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

I don't know that I do; I just don't see us being in that position.

Re: private;

[ukan]

But you can imagine it.

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

Not really.

Re: private;

[ukan]

Really? what's the wildest thing you can imagine?

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

I can imagine loads of sick things but they're not... real.

Re: private;

[ukan]

My point is I became a better person in part because of Alec's influence.

But I'd become the worst version of myself if it meant keeping him happy and safe.

I hope that's not true for you. But it probably is.

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

It's not.

Re: private;

[ukan]

I'm glad.

It's not actually a good place to be in.

...So yeah. I feel too much sometimes, too.

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

Even before you were a wolf?

Re: private;

[ukan]

...Yeah. I think that's why I started drinking.

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

I can’t do that.

Re: private;

[ukan]

Good. You shouldn't. It doesn't work, anyway, not long term.

There's no real running from feelings. Despite what a lot of our colleagues here believe.

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

Also if it mixes with the sizeable dose of Benzos I take every day, it’ll shut down my respiratory system.

Re: private;

[ukan]

And it could force you to change and God only knows what you'd have to do in a bar to survive that.

Bad news all around.

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

…You don’t think I’d just die in my bed like a troubled celebrity?

Re: private;

[ukan]

If you did I'd write you a really great eulogy.

Re: private;

[abrightboy]

Tempting, but I couldn’t leave Will.