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[talesuntold]

She shakes her head. "No. Not if you ask me not to. Just ask Sweeney. He's seen more impotent rage from me than anyone, every time someone hurts him and he tells me not to intervene."

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[abrightboy]

He studies her for a moment, then looks at the counter again.

“I wanted to turn Will.”

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[talesuntold]

"I can guess at some of Iris's reasons for doing it herself," even though she and Iris have never explicitly discussed it. "But I can also understand why you wanted to. Did you tell anyone you wanted it, beforehand?"

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[abrightboy]

He shrugs a shoulder. “When Will and I talked about ‘when he turned’, we always assumed it would happen after I was allowed to turn people. And then one day it was suddenly happening ‘today’ and I just.. thought it was important to be a good… pack player.” He looks up. “Why would anyone assume I wouldn’t want to?” he says with sudden sharpness, though it’s not directed at her and, hearing it, he looks at the counter again.

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[talesuntold]

"I'm not Iris. So I can't say for sure. But my instinct says that you and Will were... already an insular unit. And tying him, and both of you, into the broader pack as opposed to further tying him to you alone might have been important."

But that isn't the question he asked. "I don't know. I'd like to, but I'd be okay with someone else turning my loved ones, as long as I could be there when it happened and have a pack connection to them after. As long as I could feel like a part of it. It wouldn't have to be me. And in fact, couldn't be me until I have a deal to take care of my virus, so it's a good thing I wouldn't mind. That urge, or the strength of it, aren't universal, and it's not safe to assume that everyone knows what's in your head."

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[abrightboy]

"Don't tell her. There's no point to telling her now."

First things first.

He pauses, then looks up. "Will and I aren't insular on purpose, you know. We'd both love to have lots of friends we could count on. A big social circle of welcoming arms. We just don't have that. People just don't take to us like that." He considers her again for a moment. "Iris turned you. That seemed important to you. That connection. That it was her. Would you have been just as happy if Lark did it?"

Not to say Will isn't happy. He isn't Malcolm; he would have said something.

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[talesuntold]

"I'm not going to tell her."

And regarding Lark, "No, because I don't trust Lark yet. I don't feel safe with him. When Iris left the pack, I felt like I was being left on my own to make sure he doesn't fall back into the same habits I was angry with him for in the first place. That you and Will will be safe. I felt like I was losing something desperately important to me, and a part of me wanted to go with her, but I also felt protective of the two of you. And I need information I can only get from Lark, because it turns out there were important things he kept from Iris, so neither of us made a fully informed decision when she turned me. Trusting Lark definitely isn't going to happen overnight."

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[abrightboy]

"What if he was here when things happened and declared that you could be turned but he was doing it? Would you have gone through with it? Stopped it?" Malcolm asks. He tilts his head slightly. Before letting her answer, he adds "I know I didn't speak up, but nobody exactly asked me how I felt, either. It's a reason why I thought keeping my snoot shut and showing up as directed were the expected conduct. And maybe it is the expected conduct. Maybe I'm the only one who cares what the expected conduct is; I don't know. I'm just saying, Iris has been kind to me - very kind; I love and respect her a lot - but she didn't give me any more agency or consideration than Lark when it comes to this. So it's six of one, half a dozen of the other for me. When Lark invited me to join the pack, he gave me lots of time and space to think about it and talk to my friends and reflect on what it meant and what I wanted. He didn't disappear to abandon me when I needed him the most, but he also did disappear when I needed him the most. I have a lot of feelings and none of them are coherent. They just... jumble around in there. But I do know that... Will glowed like Iris for a while after she turned him, every time he transformed, and I didn't know if we were even the same thing as each other and I didn't have anyone I could ask."

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[talesuntold]

"I mean... he couldn't. Not safely, not with my virus involved. It would have meant waiting till I have a deal. I'm a science experiment. He doesn't have the scientific skills to do it, and Iris's blood worked better than his because she's different. He could have used her blood, been the one to inject it, I suppose."

Maggie purses her lips. "But he probably wouldn't have offered. Because I'm a woman. And there are complicated gendered pack dynamics that apply to any human woman who's turned. He never told Iris, because she's something different. Which I thought showed a stunning lack of foresight; he told me it never occurred to him that she might turn anyone someday. I wasn't angry on my own behalf; he didn't owe me anything. But I still believe Iris deserved honesty and candor."

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[abrightboy]

"I think the... working relationship between Iris and Lark is complicated and fraught and nothing I want to get in the middle of. Did you talk to Iris about that situation between them or just Lark?" Malcolm asks.

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[talesuntold]

"Lark first, because I got ambushed by 'one woman per pack, and if you sleep with any male wolves, they'll be beholden and bound to you in ways that compromise their future autonomy and ability to consent to situations.'" Which, you know, was a fun revelation. "So I kind of fell into the middle. And I'm really fucking glad the pack configuration here didn't leave any of us finding that out the hard way."

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[abrightboy]

"When he got back, Lark did say it was a consideration when he offered to turn me. That I'm in a monogamous relationship with a man," Malcolm admits. "If it was something less... permanent, there might be cause for concern, but I'm with Will now." He makes a bit of a face. "So it's a change from people finding that the concerning thing."

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[talesuntold]

"I think it's partly that I'm a journalist. I feel super strongly about the importance of truth and the fact that when you try too hard to control the flow of information, especially when you keep it from your own team, you leave them open to blundering into danger. Pack is too important for that." You contingency plan and share information to protect people. Period.

But she's going to switch gears and focus in on the last thing Malcolm said instead of lingering there. Maggie tilts her head. "You been taking a lot of shit for your relationship?"

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[abrightboy]

Malcolm shifts his weight. Fidgets. Then finally just says "...Yeah."

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[talesuntold]

She frowns. "Because of the warden-inmate thing, or...?"

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[abrightboy]

"Sometimes. But not only that. Some people think I'm going to manipulate him. Some people think he's going to manipulate me. Will's warden thinks we're going too fast and using words that are too intense. Jesus thinks I'm an unethical sexual predator using Will for gratification and endangering his graduation without a thought or care. So the opinions vary wildly, but we're definitely considered the Barge's Most Problematic Couple, by and large," Malcolm tells her. "I kind of wish I could say it's just the Inmate/Warden thing."

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[talesuntold]

"Jesus considers all warden and inmate relationships unethical, for the record. It isn't just yours. If you don't push, he keeps it to himself, but it's there." Speaking as someone else whose relationship he disapproves of.

"But hearing it from that many angles sounds exhausting."

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[abrightboy]

"He does, but he considers mine... moreso. Worse. And I do not have to push him to hear about it. He says it's because Will was my counseling client, but... he wasn't. But Jesus doesn't believe me. He thinks I'm taking advantage of him or something. Like that's possible. He doesn't really know Will, is the thing, so what he thinks he's protecting him from... he doesn't understand what's actually a danger to Will," Malcolm explains. He shrugs again. "It doesn't actually matter. There's no... path to get along with him. He thinks I'm scum."