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[abrightboy]

I’m… I’m just saying he might not be as averse to it as some people you’ve… been with. Um. How… how long do you think you’ll stay there?

[tinstar]

[ Raylan only took a pull from his ale bottle. Time would tell, and only time would ever help convince him that Neal wasn't going to leave.]

A few months, at least. Long enough for me to find out what normal looks like again. As far as I understand, Neal thinks he'll be comin' back too, so it's not like this is forever. Maybe by the time I come back, Willa will've come to her senses and gone home too.

[abrightboy]

Willa is thriving here, honestly. Maybe she’ll get what she needs and will go home by then.

….Raylan, if you and Neal are… are really happy there…. I mean. Iunderstand if you change your mind. About coming back.

[He doesn’t want that to be the case, but he has to Be Supportive.]

[tinstar]

Let's hope. [And he did, deeply.

He looks over, nods, and sighs mostly to himself.]

I appreciate it. We'll see how it all falls out but everythin' that's there will stay there while we're here. Makes the decision of it all easier, ya know? I just.. [He sighs again.]

I'm exhausted by all the worry that grips me all the time here. And after all my time here, I've earned a break, right? A real break? A little bit of normal life to remind me of how I have to be. How I gotta stay.

[abrightboy]

If that’s what you want, you’ve definitely earned it. But… Raylan, you’re the most normal person here.

[tinstar]

Maybe that's part of the problem.. [He shakes his head.]

The most normal here doesn't wash away the bits of me that I've changed to survive here, to try and thrive. Shit that I can't do back at home. You understand that, right? How bein' the way I am here is like or not to get me killed there?

[abrightboy]

……..But Neal is going with you.

[tinstar]

Yeah. To Miami. No one gives a shit about if I have roommates in Miami. But I still won't be able to live there the way I live here. All.. open and unashmed and shit.

[abrightboy]

Maybe you’ll find you can. I mean. People do.

[tinstar]

[Raylan smiles ruefully and shakes his head.]

You don't understand how it changes the math, with the people I end up goin' against. How much it'll change how people react, what they do. And all the shit I went through to make sure that Willa is safe, I'm not looking to throw Neal into the same pit if I can help it.

[abrightboy]

If it seems like it’s going to be a permanent thing, you could come back and get another deal to take care of all that.