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From:

cactusy

You won't give me straight answers, Malcolm.

[She says, on her way to the door.]

Kinda the last thing I need right now.

From:

abrightboy

If you don't trust my training and my techniques to be able to help you, why are you coming back next week?

From:

cactusy

[She opens the door, then half-turns, looking over her shoulder at him.]

I'm just here for the check-ins. Start talking straight, and maybe I'll consider the psychobabble.

From:

abrightboy

This is what I do. You could give it a chance. You're not happy. What if you could be?

From:

cactusy

Seriously? That's what you're going with?

[And if he wants to keep talking, he's going to have to follow, because she's heading out through the main office now.]

From:

abrightboy

[He wants to get up, but it seems needy, following her down the hall. He stays at his desk, tapping his pencil against his notebook, then he takes out his communicator and calls her on video.]

That was a little rude, but I forgive you.

[Awkward ice breaker.]

From:

cactusy

[He gets a nice view of her industrial-looking ceiling, but hey, at least she's answering.]

Yeah, well. That's me.

I'm just not into that.

From:

abrightboy

Talking about your experiences?

From:

cactusy

Me asking what someone poking around in my head is aiming for, and them being cagey about it.

From:

abrightboy

I wasn't being cagey. I wasn't even really poking. I was asking.

From:

cactusy

You wouldn't tell me what point you were getting at.

From:

abrightboy

Not everything has a 'point'. Sometimes where we're walking is just seeing where a journey of self-reflection takes us.

Why are you afraid of what you think when someone does something actually helpful for you? You didn't hesitate in describing what you thought about anything else I asked.

From:

cactusy

[She sighs, another tired sound.]

I'm not afraid Malcolm. But I think you're getting off-task.

Self-reflection isn't the problem I need help with.

From:

abrightboy

How can you know what you need if you don't examine the stories you tell yourself about stuff?

From:

cactusy

How do you know what I do or don't do?

From:

abrightboy

I was trying to find out but you left.

From:

cactusy

Because things took a turn for the stupid.

I don't need you to teach me how to let people in, or how to be happy, or... whatever. I'll be happy when I get my deal and get out of here.

From:

abrightboy

You said you have a personality disorder. I was working on that. I don't know what you think I can offer you, if you don't want help.

From:

cactusy

I also told you it wasn't curable.

From:

abrightboy

It’s not curable. A lot of disorders that aren’t curable are manageable. Questions like the ones I was asking help establish baselines. They also help you examine your own thought processes. They also help me establish your ‘normal’, since you want me to look out for signs of conditioning. But ‘stupid’ is another word for it, I guess.

Why did that question provoke you and the other two didn’t?

From:

cactusy

It didn't. But I wanted to know where you were going with it, and you refused to tell me, and that provoked me.

From:

abrightboy

Because you can’t let someone else be in control of anything you’re involved in, even if they have expertise and you don’t? We should probably examine that too.

From:

cactusy

Malcolm.

From:

abrightboy

Did I do it again?

From:

cactusy

I come to you and say I want you to keep an eye out for the possibility that I'm losing control of myself, that I've been brainwashed, that there's someone else in the driver's seat of my head. And you're surprised that I don't want someone else doing anything with my head that I don't have control of?

You wanna think about connecting the dots a little, or what.