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abrightboy

I hate to bring logic and reason into feelings I know little about, but when you didn’t die in the next five to seven days, they probably would have worked out that you had food without any help.

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hippie_ninja

No, I mean my people had food. We had a farm. Alexandria was dangerously low on rations when I found them. They could have fought us for it, but instead they were willing to trade: they'd kill the Saviors who were extorting us, and we'd let them have half of what we'd saved up for winter.

They were keeping me as a prisoner when I made the deal.

Edited Date: 6 Jan 2024 21:16 (UTC)

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abrightboy

They coerced you?

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hippie_ninja

Well...to start from the top I tried to rob them. I did rob them. And they caught me when I was knocked unconscious in the escape.

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abrightboy

What were you stealing from them if you guys had the food?

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hippie_ninja

Medicine. More food. Even with the farm people have starved to death over the winter.

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abrightboy

…You offered them half your food when you didn’t have enough food?

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hippie_ninja

We were desperate.

What's the worst thing you've ever seen?

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abrightboy

I… have mostly worked serial murders for, like, twenty years. I try not to… rank them. Gruesome things, though. Why?

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hippie_ninja

It's different when you see those things actively being done in front of you. When someone takes a kid and makes his parents watch as they torture him to death. As they laugh while they do it.

That's what we were facing. I had to stop the Saviors and that meant gambling with food and lives.

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abrightboy

I’ve… seen some things, Jesus. I get needing to stop them. That’s all you had to say. Did it work?

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hippie_ninja

I had to say it because it-

I keep thinking it was my fault even though I know it wasn't.

But yeah. We lost a lot of good people but we won. Every community I knew came together to fight them.

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abrightboy

Some victories are necessary but don’t really feel like victories. But no. That wasn’t your fault.

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hippie_ninja

Has this place changed you at all?

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abrightboy

In some ways? Lots. But things changed me at home all the time, too. And... in some ways I don't change. In some ways I'm the same and can't be something else. I used to try.

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hippie_ninja

Yeah. I can understand that.

What's changed?

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abrightboy

I don't think you'd... approve of components of the answer.

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hippie_ninja

It doesn't matter if I do or not. But you'd say you've changed for the better, right? On the whole?

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abrightboy

I don't know if I'm a better person. Sometimes I feel... pettier. Sometimes I feel... less patient. That might be wolf stuff. But I know my life is better than it was before I came here.

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hippie_ninja

I want to believe that's true for everyone here. That it makes us all better. I came here because I believed in the potential.

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abrightboy

Who did you want it for? That potential?

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hippie_ninja

Oh just, everyone. It's a prison ship where people actually get to better themselves and get redemption. It's everything I ever wanted for home.

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abrightboy

But you don't plan on leaving here alive. Or has that changed?

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hippie_ninja

[A small sigh] I...sort of made a life pact with Rosita to try to get her to try adjusting here. If she tries, I try. So. As long as she's here and trying to graduate, I'll leave here alive and go to Maggie's world.