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abrightboy

I didn’t know Norton had a Warden before Kiryu. But, if it’s any consolation, I think Norton tries to seduce everyone; it wouldn’t have been personal.

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ukan

Just wait until you see someone hit on Will. Or kiss him.

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abrightboy

I think there would only be a problem if Will was kissing them.

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ukan

Yeah, you think that now. Wait until he comes back smelling like them, even if he didn't kiss back, didn't touch back. It sets off an instinct. Wolf jealousy is a killer.

To be clear I wasn't--and am not--mad at Alec for it.

Edited Date: 13 Dec 2023 02:59 (UTC)

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abrightboy

Well, I’m a weirdo and Will’s a weirdo so… we’re less at risk. [Though Will had two relationships in his world; he does better than Malcolm.]

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ukan

What, you don't think anyone would want Will's weird?

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abrightboy

It’s not that so much. He’s very attractive. I just think if someone touches him without permission, they best prepare to be snapped like a pretzel stick and turned into weird flesh art by Will before they ever need worry about me.

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ukan

Depends. Will's crafty. Alec knows more about how to kill a person than Jeffrey Dahmer but he let Norton kiss him to prove to Norton he couldn't be seduced. It still bothered me that Norton did it because--well, instincts are what they are.

Weird flesh art is a fun mental image. He has experience with it?

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abrightboy

He’s a profiler that specializes in serial murder, too. Like me.

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ukan

Yeah I'm familiar with serial killers, too.... But flesh art isn't a typical aspect of it where I'm from.

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abrightboy

It was a main feature of one of his most high-profile cases.

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ukan

Mm. And it made an impact?

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abrightboy

Everything makes an impact. The way he interacts with the world is unique.

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ukan

And it's taken a toll.

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abrightboy

Everything takes a toll. Well. Almost everything. When we were on that space station I got him this helmet that gives a person a sort of portable sensory deprivation experience. For when people get too overwhelming. He says it helps.

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ukan

Where is he from again?

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abrightboy

He lives in Wolf Trap, West Virginia. He was teaching at Quantico. I know he did some work for the FBI in Baltimore, though.

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ukan

[Well he can't help but grin at the name.]

Being a wolf seems to help him with feeling overwhelmed, too. Or am I wrong?

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abrightboy

We like to run in the Enclosure when we need to… let go of something.

[He’s right.]

He took to it more naturally than I did.

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ukan

I think you're more prone to analyzing everything than he is. You dissect situations; he lives in them.

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abrightboy

I have to. I can’t trust my feelings about most things. They’re too big. Too much. I thought they’d bother Will, like shouting at someone with sensitive hearing. But he says he likes them. And… I think we both like… not masking at all. When there’s nobody else, we don’t have to be… self-edited for acceptable socialization.

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ukan

I've been afraid of my emotions. Other people's don't scare me. Even yours.

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abrightboy

I'm not afraid of my emotions. I'm afraid of the social cost of not being able to suppress emotional reactions or downregulate them or self-soothe to dissipate them.

I'm not self-sabotaging, Lark. I'm on the autism spectrum and I have complex PTSD and I literally cannot regulate my own sometimes disproportionate emotional reactions. That's what's wrong with me, if Archer wants to know. Also Will suspects an arrested emotional development, which makes a lot of sense and is common with cPTSD. He's going to help me with it.

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ukan

That's what I mean by being afraid of them. There's nothing inherently scary about feeling anything. If we didn't have social consequences, no one would be afraid of their feelings.

I think Will can help you. I also think he's an inmate working through his own massive, life-changing, life-or-death-consequences troubles right now and you need to look outside of him for additional help.

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abrightboy

I’m not… using him as my only support and I wouldn’t jeopardize his graduation. You sound like Shaw. I’ve been getting help for most of these problems all my life. I know what I need and where to get it.